The sound Steph makes is more of a laugh than a sob. This is a good thing.

She bites her lip again. "I know it's stupid. I just - I know there's somewhere I'm supposed to go, Dick. In Gotham, when I was - lost, there's - there's a place to go to. And I - I'm scared. I don't know how to deal with it. Any of it. How come Barry can face it and still smile?"