Steph waits for a wave of relief to wash over her.

It doesn't.

Barbara wouldn't necessarily tell her, after all.

She switches the phone to her other hand, wiping sweat from her palms. "... why can't I remember them properly? I've heard of - you know, there was that one guy who woke up from a lobotomy speaking a different language, or something, and I - I mean, I just - I don't know what's going on with me, Babs. Leslie keeps talking about PTSD but that's - it's something else, I'm sure of it."